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		<title>Mac and iPod sales both down 16% in February</title>
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		<pubDate>Tue, 17 Mar 2009 03:25:00 +0000</pubDate>
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		<description><![CDATA[&#160; Apple is apparently not outside the effects of the economic decline after all. The trend started last holiday season with a deceleration in Mac sales and has now spilled over into January and, according to the latest stats, February &#8230; <a href="http://ublu.wordpress.com/2009/03/17/mac-and-ipod-sales-both-down-16-in-february/">Continue reading <span class="meta-nav">&#8594;</span></a><img alt="" border="0" src="http://stats.wordpress.com/b.gif?host=ublu.wordpress.com&amp;blog=6612598&amp;post=69&amp;subd=ublu&amp;ref=&amp;feed=1" width="1" height="1" />]]></description>
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<p><b>Apple is apparently not outside the effects of the economic decline after all. The trend started last holiday season with a deceleration in Mac sales and has now spilled over into January and, according to the latest stats, February as well. It&#8217;s causing watchers to ponder a question of Apple: <em>How low can you go?</em></b></p>
<p><b><em></em>      <br /></b>It&#8217;s not just Mac desktop sales that were free-falling last month, but also iPods as well. Compared with a year ago period, both Mac and iPod unit sales dropped in February by 16% each. Most analysts now expect Apple to post between -4% and -11% growth in Mac and iPod unit sales respectively for the March quarter &#8212; based on last week&#8217;s Mac desktops hardware refreshes and iPod shuffle redesign. Compared with the double-digit decline seen by some of its rivals, this is actually considered a good performer in this weak economy. Still, both investors and analysts are applying further pressure on the company to release a Mac netbook to counter the notable drop in world-wide consumer spending.    <br />Apple is having a bad lack due to some remarkably accurate estimates of its computer sales by the market research firm <em>NPD Group</em>. Their surveys first warned us about decreasing Mac sales three months ago. And it&#8217;s now clear the combined effects of a depressed economy and Apple&#8217;s premium pricing strategy is taking some of the shine off the California-based consumer electronics giant.    <br />According to NPD&#8217;s latest February report, both Mac and iPod sales throughout the U.S. retail channel fell a whopping 16% each &#8212; compared with the same period a year ago.</p>
<p>But despite the sharp February drop in Mac and iPod sales, investors expect Apple to report a lesser decline of an average 4% decrease in Mac sales and 11% drop in iPod sales for the March quarter. Converting these percentages into real-world numbers means an expected 2.197 million Mac units and 9.5 million iPods in the first calendar quarter of this year. To compare, Apple shipped 2.289 million Macs and 10.644 million iPods in last year&#8217;s March quarter.</p>
<p><b>Analysts are in line with the Street</b></p>
<p>Gene Munster, a high-profile Mac analyst with <em>Piper Jaffray</em>, expects Apple to ship anywhere between 2.0 and 2.2 million Macs in the quarter, resulting in a 13% to 4% annual drop in sales for the giant. The analyst has also projected iPod sales in the range of 9.0 and 10.0 million units, which falls somewhat in line with the Street&#8217;s 9.5 million units consensus.    <br />Munster thinks the Cupertino-based Mac maker faces a difficult economic environment that makes it hard to top strong shipments in the year ago quarter (which were further boosted by the MacBook Air launch in February of 2008). <i>&quot;We expect Mac NPD data to rebound in the month of March due to the shipment of new iMacs, Mac minis, and Mac Pros in early March,&quot;</i> Munster told his clients.</p>
<p>The analyst also noted that his 9.0 to 10.0 million iPods estimate equals to a 15% to 6% annual drop, in line with investors consensus of a 11% drop. <i>&quot;Given concerns regarding iPod weakness, we believe the segment&#8217;s in-line performance relative to Street expectations is a positive,&quot;</i> Munster wrote in a research note to his clients. He expects that the unexpected refresh of the iPod shuffle will drive improvement in the data by the end of the month.</p>
<p><b>Apple hurt by the lack of a Mac netbook</b></p>
<p>This finding echoes NPD Group&#8217;s milestone January report estimating a 6% annual drop in Mac sales through the U.S. retail channels &#8212; the first monthly decline in Mac sales seen in three years. NPD blamed January&#8217;s drop on the long overdue hardware refresh of Apple&#8217;s consumer Mac desktops that Apple updated just a week ago.   <br />The research firm also predicted <a href="http://www.appleinsider.com/articles/08/12/16/npd_apples_us_mac_sales_flat_in_nov__imac_needs_refresh.html">flat Mac sales</a> for the December quarter while Windows PCs recorded a 7% growth. NPD analyst Stephen Barker told Reuters at the time that <i>&quot;there is a little extra value to consumers to buy Apple notebooks,&quot;</i> hinting that Apple&#8217;s refusal to make a <a href="http://www.tgdaily.com/content/view/40451/145/">Mac netbook</a> in times of depressed economy like this will backfire at the company.</p>
<p>Many analysts now warn Apple that it&#8217;s <a href="http://www.tgdaily.com/content/view/41531/128/">high time</a> to produce a more affordable Mac. ChangeWave&#8217;s February research of consumer purchases of the past and future 90 days, clearly show that netbooks have already pushed desktop computer sales into a downward spiral. Moreover, netbooks now contribute to better than one in six of all notebooks sold &#8212; obviously hurting Apple which still lacks an ultra-portable netbook-like Mac that would compete in the sub-$1000 price category where all the consumer money is pouring in these days.    <br />Is it possible for Apple to respond to the market? Or are they simply a headstrong company dictating to the market that which they decide. I think these declining numbers coupled with external pressures for Apple to produce a lower-cost netbook-like device will reveal that answer very shortly.</p>
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		<title>Day 2</title>
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		<pubDate>Thu, 19 Feb 2009 01:08:32 +0000</pubDate>
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			<content:encoded><![CDATA[<p>Well here we are then. Made it all the way to day 2.</p>
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		<title>The Diary of a Manic Depressive</title>
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		<pubDate>Tue, 17 Feb 2009 07:07:57 +0000</pubDate>
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		<description><![CDATA[So…. Nice to meet you…. Come here often? So what’s this all about then? …. What? …. You don’t know!…. Well were both stuffed then I guess cos I ain&#8217;t got a clue! Okay Okay… Enough mucking around. Let’s get &#8230; <a href="http://ublu.wordpress.com/2009/02/17/the-diary-of-a-manic-depressive/">Continue reading <span class="meta-nav">&#8594;</span></a><img alt="" border="0" src="http://stats.wordpress.com/b.gif?host=ublu.wordpress.com&amp;blog=6612598&amp;post=13&amp;subd=ublu&amp;ref=&amp;feed=1" width="1" height="1" />]]></description>
			<content:encoded><![CDATA[<p class="MsoNormal"><em>So…. </em></p>
<p class="MsoNormal"><em>Nice to meet you…. </em></p>
<p class="MsoNormal"><em>Come here often?</em></p>
<p class="MsoNormal"><em>So what’s this all about then? …. </em></p>
<p class="MsoNormal"><em>What? …. </em></p>
<p class="MsoNormal"><em>You don’t know!…. Well were both stuffed then I guess cos I ain&#8217;t got a clue!</em></p>
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<p class="MsoNormal">Okay Okay… Enough mucking around. Let’s get serious for a second… So what is this blog all about then?</p>
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<p class="MsoNormal">Well, that’s a bloody good question. Ill try and keep it brief but knowing me, as I do this could take a while.</p>
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<p class="MsoNormal">First and foremost this blog isn’t for you! It’s for me!</p>
<p class="MsoNormal">I have been suffering the effects of Bi Polar Disorder (or Manic Depression as it used to be known) for approximately 10 years, give or take a few years as its hard to know exactly when it all started. Its been so long now that I don’t believe I can distinguish between “normal” and the way I am and how my mind and body naturally deal with things today.</p>
<p class="MsoNormal">I was diagnosed about 3 years ago now after I continued to deteriorate at an ever more increasing rate. But more of that later.</p>
<p class="MsoNormal">It was only last night that I was watching some television and happened to stumble onto a program on the ABC here in Australia that has really made me think.</p>
<p class="MsoNormal">The program was <a href="http://www.bbc.co.uk/health/tv_and_radio/secretlife_documentary.shtml" target="_blank">“The Secret Life of the Manic Depressive”</a> by <a href="http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Stephen_Fry" target="_blank">Mr. Stephen Fry</a></p>
<p class="MsoNormal">Now aside from the sever lack of talent on my behalf, it could have been me up there on the screen presenting. Asking those questions, having those same concerns over medication, treatment, diagnosis, managing each day and most of all, in a morbid kind of way, enjoying the disorder for its manic properties and not wanting to be placed in some vegetative state through treatment or medication.</p>
<p class="MsoNormal">The show encourage me to find out more, do more, do something!</p>
<p class="MsoNormal">It sparked something in me that I hadn&#8217;t felt for a long time. A sense of urgency, a sense of self and of wanting to exist again. But also I had forgotten that I wasn&#8217;t alone. Why I don&#8217;t know, because I have the greatest motivation that lies beside me every night, my wife! She is the only reason I exist at all and yet I have somehow been effected by the documentary in the most profound way.</p>
<p class="MsoNormal">I have felt for to long now, some years infact that I had lost the battle to the beast and was no longer at the helm but rather just here for the ride. I no longer held the reigns as tightly as I once did; Always in control, Always at the front, grabbing any opportunity and indeed life by the short and curly&#8217;s. But alas it has been some time now.</p>
<p class="MsoNormal">Now I’m just a passenger, just along for the ride and hoping something good happens. Something, anything. I am just existing, no longer participating in life, just a road block for those who now have the drive that I once had.</p>
<p class="MsoNormal">Well I need more than this. I have had an incredible life and I am still only 37, recently married and I hope to be here for a lot longer yet! I want to get back in the game. I want to own my part of this life and not have it own me any longer.</p>
<p class="MsoNormal">So (and I told you this could take a while) the answer to the question, “<em>What is this Blog all about?</em>” is this:</p>
<p class="MsoNormal">It is an effort to document my thoughts, moods and anxiety levels on a daily basis. Make it part of my daily regiment. In time I hope to be able to look back at it and try to analyse my moods, look for patterns and better understand this bloody thing and then beat it.</p>
<p class="MsoNormal">I have a love of technology and a strong desire to learn so why not use technology to collect and analyse data of all forms in a way that makes sense to me. A way that helps me feel better and helps me learn more. And as a side note it will be interesting to see if anyone else finds this stuff that resides in my mind of any use!</p>
<p class="MsoNormal">Now that we have the introduction out of the way I plan on update this blog on a daily basis with what is in my head. If for nothing else than to get it out and give me a little space in my head for the day to come.</p>
<p class="MsoNormal">Well I have a lot to do and a little to learn as there are a few functions I want to add to this blog and I need to head of and learn how to make it do what i want it to do.</p>
<p class="MsoNormal">This is only the beginning</p>
<p class="MsoNormal">Take care</p>
<p class="MsoNormal">T</p>
<p class="MsoNormal">February 17th 2009</p>
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